I toyed with two other ideas for this last of the five mindful resolutions: “spend more time alone” and “say ‘no’ more.” I think all three get at the gist of the thing, which is that I tend to try to rise to unreasonable demands. Lately, those demands take the form of what feels like excessive socializing and community-building. Maybe that sounds a little bitter, but it has kind of felt that way: like there are social obligations I can’t get out of or enjoy as much as I would like. For my birthday in October I told Marc all I wanted was to have a weekend where we didn’t make any plans. I am craving both spontaneity and just a few days when the calendar is…empty.
So, resolved: no more double- and triple-booking; white lies are okay for the sake of my sanity; time alone is gold; yoga can be skipped in favor of staying home, if that’s how I want to roll; and it is okay to say “no.”